On Writing and Convictions
January 6, 2014
On Writing and Convictions
Back in 2008 I started blogging for the first time. Initially my postings were random and lacked focus, but over time I focused in on what I wanted to do: which was to share my interests and inspirations. Blogging was my first social interaction online. Twitter and Facebook were around, but like blogging, I was a late adopter. It was through my site that I made my first online connections with others in my industry whom I respect and, as with anyone who invests in sharing their passions with others, my writing improved, I made more connections, I honed my interests further, and grew in my convictions about design, art, and creativity.
Then I took this big hiatus. At the time my coding skills were basic at best and I told myself I would refrain from social media until I had redesigned and personally coded a new site. It took me 74 days to launch this, which I was proud of, but shortly abandoned because updating it was a nightmare. Everything was hand-coded (as is this new version) but since I was still new to coding I found myself constantly frustrated and giving up frequently when writing new posts. At the same time I co-founded Element which demanded a huge amount of my attention and played a factor in my inability to persevere with my new site. I ditched my 74 days of work and switched to a stock Tumblr theme, but I lost interest because it didn't look or function the way I wanted. Not long after I said "screw it" to the whole thing and put up a basic one page site with a photo of me and some links.
For the next two years I performed as a professional digital designer but felt "homeless" in that I was busy creating work for others but not tending to my own home. Any form of personal portfolio dwindled into a smattering of Dribbble shots and whichever projects I owned on the Element site. I also noticed that I started to lose my professional voice. I wasn't short on ideas or thoughts, but I had no real place to express them outside of Twitter. I had the opportunity to speak at a few conferences but always walked away from those feeling like I could've done better had I kept writing. I struggled to express my convictions on design and felt stifled in my desire to share my interests like I once had.
I needed an online home again. And this is it.
Writing feels rusty to me now. I feel like it's 2008 again. It'll take me awhile to find my rhythm, but I'm committed to building a home that lasts. In the coming weeks I will be adding my work section, I have some back-end work to finish, and I'm sure styles will be tweaked and fixes made. But I will be writing and I hope you'll follow along with me.
This post was originally posted on the previous version of my site. Links have been updated to reflect the migration to this new site version.